Who are you?
A question that can dive deep. A question which can have infinite answers. A question that well and truly made me stop and think, for quite a long while…which can always be dangerous in the mind of an over thinker.
But really though, who are you and who am I?
I realized that when I was living my pre-Bali life, I would define myself as a teacher, I taught in all senses of the word, I ran a tutoring business, I taught in schools, one to one, small group, whole class, I taught yoga, meditation…I brought teaching into my home, had my own classroom. You get the picture - I defined myself as a teacher. Which doesn’t bring much oomph into my description, in addition to this I also defined myself as somebody’s girlfriend, even introduced myself as the girlfriend, like I needed another ‘half’ to help define myself.
But that really isn’t me. Even more so now since the door has been firmly closed on that relationship and those jobs. But it’s amazing how you would define yourself as a job or a partner before really defining who YOU are.
Along with this, we often get feedback on how others define us, which again can be an absolute mind fuck. But it really makes you think in depth about who you really are, and whether or not you need these particular people in your life.
Julian Baggini, a philosopher, uses a Buddhist interpretation to define that we are not merely a human being and we are not permanent, but that we are constantly changing, and during those changes each part of us also adapts. It doesn’t just come down to one thing that controls us or moves us, its a series of pieces that comes together, including experiences, feelings, memories, sensations, beliefs and the body of course.
I refuse to be defined by my job role, my sex life, the amount of money I earn, where I live, how much I weigh, my stretch marks, my third nipple (no joke), my wonky teeth, lack of abs and my old eating disorder, or even where I come from or who my parents are. I am everything and so much more - and so are you.
Who I am is an accumulation of everything. The sensations I felt, the knowledge I have gained, the people I have met, the lessons I have learnt (and have taught). I’m a teacher, drinker, deep and meaningful conversation fiend, I’m a carer, healer and lover.
I would once blame shift to others for creating the person I was, I hear it from others now too, the blame shifting for the way they are now, when in reality it’s all choice. People can affect the way you feel, but it’s your choice as to how you move through it and process it. You are not defined by those people.
Who you are and the way in which you can define yourself is by the sum of everything. You can’t go in search of who you are, your true self or go finding yourself, because you already have it, you’re already found, you just have to acknowledge it & create it at the same time.
Never place yourselves into a category, keep moving and adapting, acknowledge who you are now and continue to grow with it, create it, use all of your past experiences as fuel to keep you going, because when you truly step into yourself, you really do know who you are inside and out.